I struggled to write this all week, not knowing how to introduce my intentions or in general, what to set. Each year people make promises to themselves on what they want to improve and work on for the new year, but for me, I tend to just set intentions each new or full moon. This new year brings us a partial solar eclipse right into the first new moon of the year. I wanted to make sure the things that I really want to work on, are set for this solar eclipse so that I’m starting the month with all the spiritual help possible.
For most people, especially people in my life, they don’t believe in the power of the moon, crystals or manifestation. Slowly I’ve been educating friends whether through text, in person chats, or my Instagram. I want people to realize that this is something easily attainable and realistic. I know many people think that crystals are a placebo affect, but have you ever had a crystal actually speak to you? Emotionally, spiritually, mentally? If not, than you don’t know what you’re missing.
Regardless if you believe in any of this, it’s a good thing to know that during any new and full moon, it’s go to really put out in the universe what you want to change, improve, and have. Whether you want to focus on a healthy habit, or remove a toxic one from your life, this is the best time. But even better is when a solar eclipse is around. Now, if you’re a crystal owner, put your whole damn collection outside to charge. Usually I put my crystals on the window sill during a full or new moon, but with a solar eclipse, the moon is in it’s full power. Use that to your advantage. While you’re at it, put out your intentions as well. Let the power of the moon and universe guide you.
With all that said and done, these are the things I am going to work on manifesting this month!
Stop Caring So Much
So what did I learn in 2018? To be more patient and to just let shit happen. I honestly have no control and at this point in my life, I need to stop caring so much. I struggled a lot this past year, with caring too much and always frustrating myself when a task, job, or project wasn’t complete. Coming from someone who either goes all in, or slacks off, I really need to find a happy medium. I also need to stop over thinking things to a point where I feel that the opinion of others are validated in how I feel about myself and my work. I struggled a lot with getting laid off twice in one year and I let that really speak to my performance, but it wasn’t anything personal. I need to stop, and being aware of this change is huge for me.
Find An Outlet
I typically have an outlet in which I can vent and release tension with. My blog was that for a good while, and so was taking photos for the blog. But lately, I find it tedious to come up with stuff to write about or to even photograph and I think it’s because I lost my passion somewhere along the way. I used to write short stories and poetry, in which I really want to get back to doing. Whether I publish it or it never gets seen, I have so much to release and the outlet is there for me. I also want to start doing yoga again, as it was something I really admired. I actually wish I could afford to do teacher training, because I totally would. Yoga allows me to go in with all the negativity, stress, pain and hurt and removes it all in the middle of it.
Work On Healthy Habits
Which now brings me to this one. I struggle a lot with this because I ‘think’ I’m healthy, but then I really analyze my lifestyle and realize it could be better. Not only physically, but mentally and emotionally. I want to focus on not depending on alcohol to de-stress. As someone who had a drinking problem for a while, I don’t want to get into the habit of self medicating for release. Which also plays into my weight issues. I don’t find that I’m fat per say, in my opinion, but I’m also not happy and I’m very vocal about it. I have been going to the gym every week for a couple months now, and have seen noticeable changes, but it’s come to be more of a, ‘I want to be stronger’ than, ‘I want to be skinny’ mentality. Which I believe is a healthier way of going about any type of body issue.
Now this one seems self explanatory, but with all that I’ve written in this post so far, it makes me more aware of how un-kind I am to myself, my body and my mental health. As someone who has had depression since she was 12? and anxiety for whole knows how long….I find it complicating to just be kind to myself. And not only myself, but sometimes others because of what I may be going through. Many people don’t understand mental illness, and we can’t blame them or take it out on them. I find myself trying to be better at the way I respond to things. Trust me, it’s not easy and there are SSSOO many times I wish I could take words and actions back. But alas, tis life.
This one has been an on going issue with me for months now. As someone who blogs, it’s hard for me to stay away from social media. I’ve been noticing some of my favorite bloggers going on digital detoxes and honestly, I don’t know why I haven’t done one as well. I think the fear or missing something important on social media, or not posting once a week, gives me anxiety, since blogging is my side gig. Despite that, for the past couple months, I have spent less time on social media and have actually posted less and less. And although I’ve seen my following and likes slowly decrease, I need to not care and just have a mental and emotional break from it all. We all need to, so I’m going to push myself to delete all socials once a month for a period of time.
Focus On Passions
This one I actually did a lot of last year and want to continue to do so this year. Some of my favorite things are actually reading and listening to music. I found myself watching too much Netflix last year and I don’t even want to think about how many hours I spent looking at a TV screen. I told myself I wanted to read a book a month and I only made it half the year. I also want to focus on listening to more music. I used to be so HEAVILY into discovering new artists every day. I have been active with creating new playlists, but I find a good majority of the artists are those I love. So here’s to reading at least 12 books this year, and creating 12 playlists with a focus on 75% NEW artists.
Speaking of, here’s this months playlist. As always, I will continue to add songs to it throughout the year, if I feel they belong.